Beatrice the Golden (
ahahadotwav) wrote2023-02-18 09:33 pm
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umineko spoilery nonsense
this is a post for the most self indulgent bullshit and it is FULL OF MASSIVE UMINEKO SPOILERS! STAY AWAY IF YOU WANT TO STAY UNSPOILED!
also uhhhh there's going to be some Content to be Warned for so i'll edit for that at some point
also uhhhh there's going to be some Content to be Warned for so i'll edit for that at some point
day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
which would be why upon returning to finch she just goes straight to her room and flops into bed]
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
[if anyone were listening in, they would not hear kanon's voice. it is spoken only within her heart]
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"...I didn't, though. I knew it would have been wrong."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
But you didn't do that, did you!? You brought us back, you decided you wanted to keep using us because being a real human being was too much of a pain! And after that, you still thought that maybe it would be okay to pretend our loves never even existed!"
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"It's not like it matters anyway. It was inside Battler's heart, so hiding those pictures would have only affected him."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
[the one speaking this time is another kanon - no, perhaps this one should be called yoshiya?]
"After all, your love with Jessica could only ever be fulfilled in the Golden Land. In this place, those feelings can only cause you pain.
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
[the two both fade away into nothing, leaving beatrice alone in silence.
but...]
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"No. We're not done here."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"You did not need to. I'm always here.
And you can say what you want about Kanon-kun's feelings, but what about mine? What about the ring George-san gave me, well before Battler-san gave you yours?"
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"If all the people involved agree to it. Otherwise, cheating is still cheating.
George-san never agreed to share me with anyone."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"That is precisely what I am saying. But you can't, can you? It's impossible for someone as lascivious as you."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"Would you prefer to go back to the way it was? Me as the person living through life every day, you as the ghost no one can see?
It would be easier, wouldn't it. We never designed Beatrice as the sort of person who has to live an ordinary human life. Being free from all those worries as a witch was the whole point. So we could change it so that I'm the person on Finch, and you're the one who only appears to torment me in my mind.
But then we'd have to explain that switch to everyone, wouldn't we? And they probably would rather have Beatrice than Shannon anyway, right? So there's no escape for you."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"You could always go crawling back to Lady Lambdadelta and beg for her to take you back. Or perhaps one of the Constellations?"
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"So where does that leave us? You want your magic. I want to stay faithful to George-san. Kanon-kun wants to stay faithful to Jessica-san. None of us want to deal with the stresses and responsibilities of this life.
And none of us can have the things we want."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"But even then... we wouldn't be happy, would we?"
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
"Can I ever be happy? It's not as though someone like me deserves it. Even in the best case scenario, even if I could have all my magic and all my loves could be fulfilled... that would still be a life steeped in curses and sin."
Re: day 69? (nice) 70?, after heart games and their fallout
[she has no answer for herself. the girl who is a witch remains alone in her silent room with no mirrors.]
day 73 evening
"...So you and Kanon will both be going to this ball?"
Re: day 73 evening
"So it would seem. Is that a problem?"
Re: day 73 evening
"Are we... really doing this again?"
Re: day 73 evening
Re: day 73 evening
[giggle]
"It sounds like you're jealous of yourself."
Re: day 73 evening
Re: day 73 evening
"...This level of division was never the right choice in the first place. It's why we had to have a duel. It's a part of why everything went so wrong. So why are we doing it again?"
Re: day 73 evening
Re: day 73 evening
"That's not what Battler and Kuroro have said. They both want all my faces. So maybe..."
Re: day 73 evening
That's not an option.
Re: day 73 evening
"...I know. No matter what anyone says, no matter what name Jessica might call me, such a face is not one anyone will ever see. Even kissing her that time, it was just you wearing my face, wasn't it?"
Re: day 73 evening
[because if she openly acknowledges a self that is truer than beatrice, the true name behind it all, it feels like every illusion she's built might come crumbling down.
the thought is so frightening it can't be spoken even with the voice of her heart.]
Re: day 73 evening
[sigh]
"She's going to keep wanting to see my face. What are we going to do about that?"
Re: day 73 evening
We can't show her what she wants to see, but she'd notice sooner or later if it was just me. And it can't be Shannon."
Re: day 73 evening
"Because Shannon belongs to George-san."
Re: day 73 evening
Re: day 73 evening
"Sayo, that gloomy girl who fell in love with the daughter of her employers. She tries to keep up a cheerful face, to look like the cute girl most people would want her to be, but she can't quite hide the sharper features beneath.
...Ahh, perhaps we're just making a girl version of Kanon here?"
Re: day 73 evening
Re: day 73 evening
"I suppose there's not much need to plan out this "me". The only really important part is that she isn't a witch."
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